Exhale.

Yeah. It's been a while. I apologize. Alot has been going on and it's been a bit to much to handle for me personally. I'll let you guys in, since you guys took your time to open the page up and read this. First off, I'll start with the positive. I've taken the initiative and picked up guitar. With the help of bryan and khristine, i'm on my way to playing guitar. I always had the love for music, whether it be dancing or playing instruments, i just love the expression behind it. So far so good. Eh my distracted self is way too occupied to expand right now, so'll just go ahead and lead into the bad. My work has been on overload, and my life has been on fast forward. I find myself behind on work, and catching for a breathe of air as if I'm drowning. The only things that were keeping me afloat were my friends and my heart khristine<3. But even those, i felt myself pushing away. I found myself falling into this abyss where Derek Gamboa had a lost personality. I would not be having fun when i know I should be. I found myself moping around, when I should be smiling. All of this, was stress. It came to the point where I found myself exploding on the ones I love...which I can never forgive myself. For this, I took the initiative to take a step back from my life and just put everything on hold. Everything. Even my heart. At the moment Khristine and I are not together. I need this time to allow myself to become the person I need to become..and simply...calm the fuck down. Being a premed major, and deep within the dance scene as I am, I'm not sure how long that may take...but it's something I need. As much as it twists my heart, and twists her's...this must be done. The derek gamboa we all know will be no more if this continues. Life shall develop, and one day, derek will be able to stand on his feet again. As said before, wipe those tears, and stiffen that upper lip, one day, love, one day...it will be alright. One day.

-derek gamboa

Pack Up the Shoes. Take out the Books.

Balance that ish.
So today was an icky day. It snowed.
How could it have been 55 degrees yesterday...then snow all day today?
Eh. Don't know. But bigger things have hit me tonight.
I came home after a great practice at PDC[great choreo Dania!] and I realized how much effing work I have to get through. I came home, body exhausted, body dead, and with 10 pages of argumentative reading to take care of. Time to take my balancing act of work and dance from an 8 to a 10.
Gotta know when to hang up the shoes, and take out the books when the time is right. My intital adjustment has been great. So far I'm on top of my work, and fairly ahead in my studies. Yet I still find myself needing to fight to stay awake while reading page loads of either ocean chemistry and the behavior of the ocean tides, or argumentative writing about death penalties in the United States.

My adjustment is good, but still needs that extra push towards studious status. Hopefully, it doesnt completely destroy my social life. :[

Gotta find the median.

sandys friedrice (11:33:53 PM): i wish my mom touched mine, its so hard to keep it clean

^^ A Statement that would only remain a not dirty remark unless you knew what we were talking about. We were talking abut how clean our moms kept our closet when we stay at home.
Apply that statement anywhere else, its a dirty remark. I'll let you use your imagination on that one. Thanks Sandy. Thank you.

-derek

It's pretty today.

Yeah, title says it all basically.
I thought it looked really nice outside today.
The sun was shining...and everything.
Haha the pictures don't do it any justice...but nonetheless, it was pretty outside.
And warm for once.
The weather says its 50 degress outside. Not bad for Feb.
But egh tomorrow is supposed to be 35 again. -_-
I guess that makes today special.

-derek

Nope, I didn't forget about you sweetheart.

Hmm. Sorry about the lack of posts. Been very caught up in busy shit. Whether it was school or just plain dancing, I'm on busy status. Well to update all of ya'll, I had my dance company/tea, finally off the ground. In January, we had our first auditions...and we have ourselves a team :]

Hmm..I feel like I cant write that much again haha...oh well. PDC has Barrios to take care of. I'm going to be helping out with choreograhpy and anythign else I can get my hands on.

Finally back in school...I get to see Khristine everyday again! yessir<3. Hoping the stress doesnt get the better of us. But we had a great talk about it. Im sure with way..we're both gonna end up just fine.

...I'm leaving out alot..haha cause I just wanted to say hi. Didnt want you guys thinking I forgot about you all. haha. I'll keep this updated. I did promise didn't I?
-derek