Dammit I can't keep this up haha

Hmm. I'm really bad at keeping uo with this blogging thing. But I'm trying haha. So what has happened recently? Well ILL Theory tryouts have happened...and it went great. We have a great new set of kids on board and I'm more than excited to see what teh future holds for us. Unfortunately...after a dispute between two powers...ILL Thoery lost two coordinators. Not needing to put any names up here...wuite teh unfortunate event has happened..but hey...gotta keep moving forward...and gotta keep trying. They have agreed to the consequences of their actions..which has resulted in them being expelled from teh team this season...yet they both agreed to help teh team in anyway they can..whcih we will probably need haha. ILL Theory will be just fine...all that's needed is determination and a positive attitude. We got this...we got this.

Anyways...straying away from the dance aspect...I'm quite still the confused person i was not too long ago. Things have been definately getting better between us...but we still can't figure things out. It's like th heart is there...but not the timing. =/

No rush...things alwasy roll out the way they should. I gotta keep my "be easy" attitude..and i should come out of this just fine. Even if things don't completely work out...I know I'm going to be just fine...because in the end..i'm thankful for the moments that make me happy...rather than dwell on one time moments that make me sad. Life's unpredictable...so you alwasy gotta be on your toes. The heart takes time to grow...so let it grow. I hate the word love by the way...I'm avoiding that word on purpose haha.

Anyways...I'll def try to find a way to keep this updated. Gotta spill my mind somwhere haha.

-derek

Another Delayed Post

Sorry guys, I did it again.
Haha neglected to write in this...but that's okay! The whole point of this was not for show..but for expression. Alot has happened since I've last posted. Let's start.

ILL Theory has been finally getting events out there. We just had our NJ PAC performance. We did pretty well despite our time allotted haha. We got great praise from not only fellow dancers, but from the show coordinators as well. Sigh, performing up on that big stage was just a small taste of what could be to come for our team. But, as I've learned in these recent weeks, trust needs to be a very catious process. Drama has been the middle name for the time period before our show...but as all troupes and teasm need to do, it has been resolved. It has taught us that we need to really communicate as a team if we aim to succeed. BUt in teh end, I love my fam, and they''ll all always be in my heart.

Lately has been such a heart wrenchign time period for me personally...but really i'm just tryign to find myself. It's jsut unfortunate that things tend to overlap each other at its worst times. Well thast okay...I think im startign to see the ligth at the end of the tunnel for this one...or am I just approaching another tunnel? We'll see I guess. Sigh, not the happiest endign to this post...but..it'll do.

I'll keep you guys posted.